When I was young I went out to dinner with a guy who picked me up. After dinner he drove to the making out parking lot of a city park and pounced on me. I was afraid to tell him to stop, out of fear he would dump me out, and not drive me home.
Since that I always meet a person/people at the restaurant.
I had seen him around the gay bars and elsewhere, but it was the first time I went out with him. I actually had more trouble with guys my own age than older guys.
When a lesbian couple had me drive one of their brothers who came out as gay to a party, I was the gentleman. I took him there and drove him back without pouncing on him.
I did bad stuff during my prodromal sz. I regret these and wish that I could erase them from my memories. I was hypersexual, maybe from sz causing too much dopamine. Now my sex drive is normal on Risperdal. It was much worse on Abilify.
Me too before sz I was able to work. I kept a job for over 3 years. After sz I quit 10 different jobs after up to a few weeks. I was never able to work after sz except for a very low stress job at my mother’s accounting office entering Excel data and scanning documents, I was on Latuda 80mg back then but I had some positive symptoms and some catatonia. Sz sucks.