At first it started in 2015, sudden flashbacks of things that happened in my first time psychosis 2010-2011. Then it started mutating to resentment, me having reaction to my thoughts, saying things back to my thoughts, it’s been 5 years.
I googled treatments for PTSD, and apparently SSRI is great, but I already tried Escitalopram for like 8 months, it did absolutely nothing. I tried Zoloft, it made me hyper. I am still taking Benzos and exercise is helping but some days it’s so bad, I can’t cope with the intrusive thoughts. I have no idea what to do. I tried a mood stabilizer it didn’t do anything.
I did 15 sessions of CBT, my therapist taught me not to have reaction to my thoughts, just treat them as thoughts, they come and go but it’s so hard.
I tried EMDR, nothing is working. I took Clonazepam 0.5 mg, it worked great. I was even able to drive with it and it numbed my intrusive thoughts down but it made me suicidal. It’s been FIVE YEARS. I wanna be happy and enjoy life. My doctor does not know what will help me.
If Clonazepam and l-theanine work somewhat then it sounds like you need something for anxiety. I.e. if you treat your anxiety then it might sort out your intrusive thoughts.
Do you have a suggestion. L-Theanine is no longer working, it only improves my sleep quality. I am taking xanax, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t.
Yes. You can. But I’ve been able to cut my l-theanine intake by half since I started taking beta alanine. The 2 together were a bit too sedating so I cut back on l-theanine.