Deep down I’ve always been fascinated with the supernatural. I remember so many times where I would fervently pray for superpowers. I would try and meditate and unlock some sort of latent power I thought I had in me. I think I broke myself doing that. And I don’t know if I can be fixed.
The subconscious is so powerful. I’ve noticed that something will happen to me, and subconsciously it’s like I programmed it to happen that way. It’s like those pictures of the iceberg, how it’s big above the water and massive underneath.
Like I’ll subconsciously think something and my whole life will gear itself around that thing. I have to constantly monitor my thoughts to avoid really ■■■■■■ up ■■■■ from happening. And when I don’t it really does happen. What a life.