Because I almost don’t see my son anymore. He lives with his dad in the other end of the contry, and the last two years I have been more and more sick, with negative symptoms/depression. Also I have been having a drinking problem. My son is 13 years now, but I still kind of wish that I had given him up for adoption. I wish he could grow up in a family without mental illness, with both a mother and a father there could live with him every day. Maybe he would have had siblings. Im sure that he would have had a much better life if he had been adopted. Unfortunately Im the only one in the family that understand that.
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Do you have a good relationship with your son despite not seeing him often?
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That sounds so very difficult. I’m sorry you are struggling with all that. I never had children, so I can’t fully understand your pain, but I do care.
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Yes we talk a lot on the phone. I think like twice a week. But I feel so sad. I don’t have contact with my mother, because she has a personality disorder and was mean to me. Now Im scared that my son wants to break contact with me when I get old. Why should he want to talk to me, when I was not capable to take care of him?
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Thank you that is very kind of you. I always wanted a child, because I was so lonely when I grew up. My parents and my brother didnt care about me, so I thought that everything would be better if I had my own child.
It will depend on the emotional intelligence of your kid if he will understand or not.
But it’s no use to anyone to be negative. Try to have as much good conversations as possible or happy memories when you see him.
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Yes I will try that. Right now he is in a teather group and next month Im going to see the play/performance. It is a Christmas play
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I hope you enjoy that play.
My dad catastrophizes everything and is usually doom and gloom. Negativety needs to be dimmed sometimes.
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