I still think the fbi is still tracking me down

Unusual Beliefs
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Im scared, paraniod and worried.

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I still think navy SEALs are following and recording me. But I’m told it’s a delusion

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The IRA/CIA are following me

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Maybe the Caplyta you are taking is not working or you need a med adjustment. @oe1489

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I think the government follows me because when I was younger I wrote anti-government propaganda.

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Were you paranoid and like that on Geodon? You never said that you’re paranoid while on Geodon.

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my counsoler told me write down my thought it helps.

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i got paranoid but with good reason, it is very real, i was convinced and still am that the devil had singled me out and was puting me through trials and ttrying to kill me, evil spirits were out to get me and i couldn’t sleep for 3 weeks I had only 18 hours sleep in 21 days bc they come in the night, then i thought i was a prophet and i still think i might be and i am worried that i am not fulfilling Gods chosen purpose, if i do not hear my calling God might not look kindly upon me but i try and ttake solace in the fact that God is still with me and i love him and he knows tthat and I really do hope that i am not Going against God by Fulfilling his prophesy :frowning: i couldn’t live with myself if i upset God, i would accept his full wrath :frowning: if i thought ihadnot fulfilled my part :frowning: I have very mixed feeling about it, sttrong feelings that no-one else understands, no-one would ever care about or want to know, God is dead to most people but he is bigger than the universe to me, uncalculably bigger.

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What you’re experiencing is delusions.

I had a very similar one.

I feel much better now that I don’t feed those delusions anymore.

Therapy really helped.

There’s nothing special about you that Satan wants,

It’s all just the illness.

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Is mine a delusion too

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There doesn’t need to be, he will take what he can, i put up a good defence though, and i wouldn’t have survived it without God at my side. but i am getting a bit triggered by this now, i haven’t really ttold anyone about it.

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Okay,

I won’t get into details because you’re feeling triggered,

But you should know that religious stuff just feeds those delusions.

I feel much better and happier after dropping all of it.

Avoiding religious materials has made a night and day difference in my life.

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I can avoid it, i have to live with it, if i let down my defences then thats when he will strike, my faith is the only thing i have right noww to fight this as well as my med but even my med is causing me problems right now

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As long as you think like that,

You’re going to be sick.

I know because I’ve been there.

You’re not fighting Satan, you’re fighting the illness.

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Those are the same thing to me

My illness is down to evil forces penetrating and subverting my mind, satan puts all this illness in my head, its the only way i can make sense of it

Like my illness has to come from somewhere, the source of my illness is there

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Yeah,

That’s wrong.

I hope you figure that out soon,

For your own sake.

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If that helps you sleep better at night then i think you are blessed

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I’m scared they will get me when I turn 40 and take me to North Korea to turn me into the dictator through plastic surgery. I don’t know who “they” are.

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I feel like I am being watched and I don’t like it. I want my private space.

I feel like I can’t be myself, even when I am ‘on my own’ because I am being watched.

And when I am socialising I am also being watched and it makes socialising less enjoyable.

But on a positive note, I am not full blown psychotic and I think I might be able to eventually cope with this delusion. Idk if it will ever go away.

Maybe. Maybe not.

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They are probably busier with actual dangerous criminals like whoever planted that bomb in Tennessee.

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