Even though it sounds funny I can seriously say I’m so used to not being me…
…that it is my immediate reaction to react to my mind as though it is “that pesky diseased personality thing that is like a cancerous tumor annexed to my mind.”
But it’s me. I am it.
Ugh. I mean what a dilemma. They didn’t teach about this in school. 
I know it is important to recognize that the voices are just you. But what is wrong with referring to them as your voices. Sort of another part of you, but you have no control over it. So, it isn’t exactly you.
I know. You’re right, but I’m used to giving them a social context, and that is the source of the psychological problem. It shouldn’t be anything to do with social context which implies a “moral do or don’t.” For some reason once my brain has a hint of that persuasion, then it gets really crazy weird. Like…that’s the snap of the hypnotist’s fingers that causes the crazy sz tantrums which wind up in what I would call mental spasms.
Even just a hint that way will cause that mess, and it sets me back in my life like someone with the sleeping disorder that causes them to fall asleep all of the time.
I think it takes constant awareness, reinforcement. and practice to change this.
I think what the problem is that I have forgotten how to think. It’s not that I can’t relearn it, but it is something to make note of.
I have forgotten how to think logically about the value of my thoughts such as who, what, where, and why. I’ve had these things wrong for so long now that it is not immediately intuitive to me. My thoughts had become a question of who they are, what they in composition, where they are when I hear them or sense them as other forms of voices and so on, and why they are what they are. All of the answers were so wrong; so unreal.
This is called an ouroborus. Actually the one in the middle is an enso.
I think it effectively symbolizes the state of mind that is sz. There is a way to make the mind do this. I’m studying how it is done now. I wouldn’t do that to anyone, nor do I think I can, but knowing how it is made to be done is therapeutic for me. It mends what I’ve broken in my mind.
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