I still don't think I have schizoaffective disorder

You sound very irritated and distressed…what exactly is it? Are you angry with the diagnosis? Angry about your meds? Angry about your relationships? All three and then some?

I was always angry before I got on my magical medication regiment- i am very fortunate to be symptom free. I used to be angry as hell. Go look in the creativity section at some of my artwork- the burning skull might help you see how I felt.

sounds like your getting a lot of conditionakl love from your dad ill spare you the stay away from drug crap cause I wouldn’t have listened either thing is theres no books on how to be a dad but he should love you for who you are not if you have job etc and that can hurt. try and forget about the fight and have a nice time with your boyfriend.