Hi I’m new and wanted to start off with the thing that has been bothering me most lately.
The biggest problem i have is that I see emotions as if they are hallucinations, and it’s always whenever I feel an emotion near my eyes. It’s like as if the emotion is an energy and when that energy gets to my eyes, I can see it on other people. I want to believe its a hallucination that I have control over but the fact that its always whenever I feel emotion near my eyes that I see it makes me think its something spiritual or having to do with God. I’ve had things like thought insertion when I think its God talking to me and I’ve had many delusions with a religious or grandiose tone too.
It’s like each emotion corresponds with the facial expression of the person/picture and each has its own unique look to it. Whenever I see it or feel emotion in this way (near my eyes and in my forehead), it seems like I’m more conscious then when I’m not, like my vision gets clearer and I feel more aware. I always happens when its near my forehead so it makes me think its my pre-frontal cortex doing something strange but I see it on cartoons and video game faces too. I even see it on animals and insects too.
Have you ever had this happen to you or heard of anything like this? I hate hate hate it and just want it to go away like how it used to be. I’m currently taking Risperdal and it does nothing to stop this. I am really hoping that there’s a med out there that could make this go away or at least allow me to feel emotion normally without seeing it on other people.
