I reached the end of the road

I can’t go on by myself; I have to make a friend or hang out with someone. I’ve been avoiding it for years, my excuse was I was trying “to find myself” or figure myself out. And at the end of ten years I realize: there’s nothing to figure out. I’ve been avoiding people and friendships but “no man is an island”. I hate to do it but I need people, I know this for a fact. Guys at work wanted to make friends but I avoided it, my roommate invites me to do social stuff and I’ve been declining. I got so I take breaks and lunch alone at work and I just have superficial conversations with co workers and the office workers. I can’t do it anymore.

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That sounds like a healthy realisation.

If you have the opportunity to socialise you should definitely try it.

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Yeah we all need people. Have you seen a movie called into the wild? Well anyway its based on a true story of a guy who left society and went into the wilderness by himself. The moral of the story is the times he felt most filfilled and happy was the long journey to get to the wilderness, which was full of meeting and getting along with all sorts of people along the way. Not the solitude of the wilderness when he gets there.

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same. I admit I have been avoiding people a lot and being anti-social. I am just waiting for the moment when I feel like i can trust people again. But I need to allow the assistance? As much as I dont like the idea of power/control and pressure its weird like im being pressured to do things i want to do so its not that bad.

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Sounds like progress.

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They put the bus from “Into the Wild” out of the wilderness and at our local museum…the state got sick of people trying to visit the bus and ending up dead or stranded, needing expensive rescue efforts.
I had trouble making friends a few years ago, social interaction is hard for me, but now I have a couple of good friends and several associates and am much happier.

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Oh true, intersting.

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Honestly it’s hard to start socializing. I found that I just kinda had to do it. If someone invited me somewhere even if I thought I would hate it. I would force myself to go. And I was surprised at the results. I actually found myself having a good time or at the very least it was never as bad as I imagined.

I hope you can branch out socially

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I too have this fear of socializing. I know what are the ways to be a person who is amicable and interacting. But the mind or brain never accepts to be that. It always wants to cave in to a shell and think within the shell. I am trying hard to break the shell and be of help to others and myself.

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I think it’s a great thing for you to do and encourage you to do it. Why not do the internet dating thing?Doesn’t mean it’ll lead to anything but just go out on some dates and meet some people outside your comfort zone.

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Im reading a book by derek borthwick called eliminate negative thinking, its really good for anxieties and low confidence symptoms like social anxiety

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I’ve been mostly isolated for 15 years. I have one friend whom I drink beer with once in a month.

I also have another friend and he has Sz. He sends me texts and asks me how I’m doing almost every day. He works full time. But I’m not always social, or very rarely. He wants me to visit him but I really don’t feel like it.

I’m a hermit!

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I always avoided other people because it was easier to remain alone. When I first started getting symptoms of mental illness I shut down completely.

Maybe you can join a recreational class or something? Or heck even church. Churches are social places too. They always did tea and coffee at my parents church and everyone talked to each other

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I have been without friends for a decade too.

Problem is I cannot trust other people

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My family has been trying to get me married since I can remember, even heard rumors of arranged marriage. There were times they were saying they don’t want to see me lonely if I end in a situation where I don’t have my parents.

Of course I was in severe religious delusions at the time and said “you are people of god if you have god how can you be lonely”. This was during my major relapse that almost put me back in the hospital.

As I regain mental function I see there points and yes I don’t want to be lonely I understand them a little better.

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