I often wonder

Continuing the discussion from Are you dead yet?:

I often wonder if I had succeed in one of my attempts on my own life and this is the afterlife. That and I’m stuck in a very bad acid trip. Not that I recall ever doing acid. Just a lingering thought I guess.

Not afterlife. The best way (or worst way, depends on your standpoint) to do it is disassociate from the main identity and start over another new identity. This is how I dealt with trauma.