for work. it became habitual. i think because when i was 18-25 i had no idea what i wanted to do for a living. and i thought i would just get a job that required little skill.
jobs were readily available though, but they were physically exhausting.
now i just think of the time wasted, and would like to be profficient at a skilled trade. i remember one friend i had kyle, was always trying to talk me into joining the union and becoming an electrician. another, jake, wanted me to become a carpenter and work with him. but i was happy to not use my brains much and make $500/week laboring away.
i will not be taking any general labor jobs these days, i can’t do it anymore. so am looking for something less physical.