I miss Sarah she has retreated with Alien because of meds. Meds have turned me into a shadow of my former self. They’ve helped me but I don’t know who I am anymore. Maybe I miss the drama at least i was more… Oh man I’m just … Being unreasonable I suppose. Sometimes I wish I could stop my meds to discover the real me. I feel like a liar. But if I stop meds then all hell will break loose.