Well here I am! The Foxx is back! Let’s give you guys a life update.
Went to the ER 4 weeks ago with tachycardia and chest pains. They couldn’t explain it and chalked it up to my anxiety I knew it wasn’t anxiety.
Finally had my appointment with the cardiologist two weeks ago and he ordered three tests. Did the first test last Thursday an echocardiogram and during the breath control to acquire the images I passed out.
My next test is a tilt table test (TTT). That’s this Thursday. I’m so nervous I’ve heard they’re awful.
My last test through cardiology is a 30 day heart monitor.
I also have a sleep deprived EEG and a VNG coming up this month as well.
I have so many medical tests I just am ready to be done with life. I’m ready for this illness to go away. I hate tachycardia and passing out. I hate being dizzy when I’m standing and the constant fatigue. And on top of all my physical symptoms, my psychosis started rearing it’s ugly head again last week.
I keep seeing terrifying demons in the corner of my room at night and if I look away from them they move closer to me so I just am stuck staring at them till I fall asleep from exhaustion. I wanted to go back to the hospital for a psych stay but I have all these medical tests I can’t miss and I can’t put my brand new job at risk plus a dog to take care of so I can’t go to the hospital.
I want to go back on Loxapine but it caused TD and leg tremors. But I know for a FACT it would help. I don’t know what to do.