I’m not advertising my Instagram. But I started using Instagram. And I asked this cleaning girl for her Instagram. We exchanged but I followed her on the wrong account. She followed me back on the wrong account
PS my new diagnosis is officially “DDNOS” [dissociative disorder not otherwise specified]
My therapist said she can diagnose axis 1-5 and that’s the diagnosis for me.
She said I’d be DID but I don’t have much amnesia between my alters
So that disqualifies me for “DID” but not for ddnos which is pretty much a dissociative disorder (caused by traUma) where they don’t have a name for yet
I said it should be called Shalik Stovall disorder. Which was the made-up name of my first alter. Lol well that’s a bit grandiose. Ddnos is most appropriate. Shalik Stovall isn’t a real person but he was for a number of years
We could cite more depersonalization, dissociation and alters throughout the years.
But he was my main one. While Jon shrunk to near nothingness. Shalik became greater over the years
Until I quit Shalik and tried to become ShaJon.
It’s confusing but I think I understand now.
Also she said it’s clear I have all the co morbids I thought I did also. Which is ocd, SAD, SUD, and she said PTSD too.
It’s ok Mae. It’s interesting But I’ve noticed a lot of DID have gender identity concerns.
I haven’t had that much but I have…. I think naltrexone really helps me find one entity that dominates my core.
I’ve had less and less identity disorder since starting naltrexone
I’ve always been a straight man. But , I’ve had minor thoughts of being both of the main genders.
I’m not sure if it’s the same disorder but I used to “imagine I was” every person who walked by.
I was men, women, tall, short, skinny, fat, old, young, different diseases, couldn’t even ‘walk’ in some of those ppls shoes
It was more like OCD. and I stopped doing it when I lost my mind/consciousness and became de realized from drug abuse and the bad habit of trying be everybody else
I think you can recover from this. But it’s not easy. That’s for sure.