I hate that I have to be female. I wish gender came with a third option - asexual. I loathe sex and masturbation it’s so disgusting. Why do I have to have the stupid urge to f*** myself??? My brain is sick.
That’s also why I hate long hair on myself - I want to be liberated from my femaleness. I want to be free from attractiveness to opposite sex. I don’t want to attract men. Not even my husband. Sex is just a duty not a pleasure. Sex is overrated - its just not what I thought it’d be. It’s just messy and yukky.
Is it normal for sz/sza people to reject or be ashamed of their sexuality? Or am I weird?
I’m pretty asexual, but I still find a nice buxom woman attractive. I just don’t make a big deal of it since the plumbing is like AWOL. Not even that old either. Thanks meds.
I would have preferred to be female. I would have been a practicing lesbian though. I don’t think it has anything to do with my disorder, because I’ve felt this way since I was a teenager and I didn’t get schizophrenia symptoms until age 30.
Girls are so pretty, and they get to wear whatever they want. I probably wouldn’t be cool with the way men would treat me if I looked like that though, so there’s that.
I just find my body disgusting and that’s why I dont enjoy sex. So I’m currently a practicing asexual. It has nuhin to do with the whole idea of fluid and stuff like that. Except I’m worried about catching something from someone so if I wasn’t asexual I’d always wear a condom.
There are many asexually minded people out there. But if you have the urge to @#$% yourself you may be something else. There’s nothing wrong with it really if that’s the case. But it is wrong to pretend to be something you are not. If you like your husband you can be friends. If he doesn’t want to allow it there are places to run to. There are shelters for women in many towns and clubs for asexual or otherwise oriented people out there. Your brain is not necessarily sick. It may be trying to tell you something.
OK got to apologise to myself here. No my body is not disgusting. Its just not the typical magazine body that’s what I meant. Disgusting is a mean rude word to describe myself. It’s a healing physical body that has scarring of all sorts
I got to apologise too. Sex isn’t disgusting and so isn’t being male or female - its just I hate masturbating I find that so loathsome. If I do that I feel so dirty afterwards and ashamed. With sex I don’t feel dirty.
I used to masturbate compulsively in my 20s. I didn’t feel proud of it. Now I have slowed down a lot. But I think it’s a natural urge that should not be frowned upon. Better masturbate than sleep around while in a relationship.
I think I’m pretty normal when it comes to sex and urges, little kinky is always fun and a good fantasy can get you through the masturbation, it is all good
I guess so. Dunno why I’m so uncomfortable with sexuality. Maybe it’s the religion thing, I wanted to be a nun from 2006-2011 and made a personal vow of virginity. Was big into celibacy back then. I guess I still have a bit of it in me even though I’m married now. I’ve never been entirely comfortable with sex.
I don’t care much for sex, personally. To me, it is like wearing a grey t shirt. I have nothing against grey t shirts, and they look great on other people. But for me, I just would prefer to wear other colors most days. Occasionally, I will find a grey shirt I like, and I will wear it. Most days though, I don’t even think about grey shirts. I have no problem wearing a cute grey shirt if someone hands me one, but I won’t go out of my way to buy one.
Oh man women used to be second class tell me about it.
But now we can be anything we want to be and dress however we want
I haven’t worn a dress in 20 years.
I wore cowboy boots instead of heels.
But it’s more important to have a beautiful heart no matter what gender.
There’s so much pressure these days to be something different than male and female. Resist society and be whatever you want to be.
It sounds like you are experiencing a lot of gender dysphoria. Have you always wanted to be a man? Maybe you are transgender. Or perhaps you have undergone traumatic events that have lead you to hate being female and hate your sexuality so violently. These things can be addressed in therapy. Or maybe you really are just asexual and don’t want to identify as any gender and aren’t interested in sex. But to me it sounds more complex than that.
Really it sounds like therapy could do you good regardless.
Hi there being an animal just means we have to deal with our animal drives which is in turn strange …
I just want to say that we live in a culture where masturbation is frowned apon but it is a healthy natural thing and guess what girls wank too!
no matter what gender.