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I know I will Fail?

I know I’m going to fail the system keeps telling me so internally and externally. So why do I push on? I think there is still a piece of me that feels connected to the illusion of caring in my life. Whatever I’m looking for won’t come, so I might as well stop trying now. I don’t know what I dislike more, knowing I will fail or believing I can succeed. I’ve unlocked all the doors to my truth and it makes me sick. There’s no such thing as delusion only relative reality and my reality is some twisted test for who knows what purpose or punishment.

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Einstien failed a thousand times before he got the right formula, you can do it too.

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I don’t believe that, I feel that reality is absolute.

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Perception can be tricky. I would say we create our own reality by which we are most aware of. Reality is a piece of our consciousness that gives life meaning too, so if you break it down, it’s basically our senses that determine what is happening.

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even if you do fail…what happens ?

  1. you learn a lesson.
  2. you become wiser for it
  3. your ability to succeed becomes greater.
    it has taken me 3 times longer to learn the most basic things in life…compared to ’ normals '.
    it did not stop me though… :smiley:
    success is not necesarily acheiving your goal…
    it is the journey to your goal… :sunny:
    take care :alien:
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Schizophrenia is a disease that distorts our perception. It doesn’t change what’s real. We can believe in something completely yet reality does not change.

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Sadly enough, I can relate.

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Good answer…

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Maybe you’re trying too hard.

Malvok, what’s your reality really? Is it a set of structures that leads to ultimate perception, or is it the same basis that men have played against for dominance, or is it just nature that hinges on being in it to totally experience it?

If you’re going to fail, find something you enjoy and fail at that. I have failed at writing so many times so hard but I got published in my college’s literary journal on my first try because I ran out of extremely crappy ways to fail and moved onto less crappy ways to fail. I feel like I’m a failure a lot of times but sometimes you have to take the attitude of I’m a failure but ■■■■ you and ■■■■ your ■■■■ I’m coming for your ass.

Hell it doesn’t have to be anything you like. I didn’t originally enjoy writing but I felt the need to do it and you can only get better by failing. It’s like one of the horse riders at my school said. Until you’ve been thrown you aren’t a real rider. If you’re that dedicated and have been doing it that long you are going to get thrown, more than once.

Reality is the wall you bump into when your eyes are closed.

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I think there are two realities. A reality governed by the laws of physics and pure mathematics. And another reality that is subjective and heavily influenced by our 5 senses and our brain. The reality we experience is just an approximation of the true reality.

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But that’s blinded, what can that mean? I mean, if you are just honing along with your instincts, with your touch and your outward feel for balance, then what does it say for your being you in the world that is dark and forbidden? If I wanted to feel my way out, I would have been much more inclined to take the approach that we know nothing, and can’t really make it anything until it is touched upon and made my own.

I mean that regardless of how we perceive reality it does not change. The wall remains whether we see it or not, believe in it or not. We glimpse a small fraction of reality but we do not control it nor is it changed based on how we perceive it.

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I believe physical reality supersedes and is more important than our subjective reality. I may close my eyes and touch the wall and not believe in my experience, but that doesn’t mean it’s not there.

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yeah, does it give you comfort that we all feel this way? This same reality? I mean, if nobody can change it or shape it, then, really it is like a universal truth, right? I just feel so off sometimes that I can’t make heads or tails of what it means to see the light of day. Maybe schizophrenics have a more innate ability to interpret the surroundings either directed toward them or against. Mostly, I’m in favor, but sometimes it’s too much.

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I believe there is a universal truth. Ours is just less accurate.

Yeah I guess it does.

That’s what I believe.

I often feel the same and that’s why I find reality checking with others to be very valuable.

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