I’m hoping it fades soon. Im just so stressed from all of this this hospitalization couldn’t have happened at a worse time. I haven’t felt this paranoid in years.
I’m just trying to stay calm and present. But it’s definitely been a struggle.
The hospital itself was more boring than anything else. But a good chunk of the staff just seemed pissed off most of the time. A couple of nurses were pretty cool though one guy always stocked me up on snacks so that was cool.
A couple of the patients had no concept of boundaries which was terrifying. But luckily most of them were chill.
The beds were hard the shower burned. And the doctors were condescending everybody talked to me like I was a bratty 5 year old if I asked for anything
They wouldn’t let me have my ■■■■■■■ inhaler for like 4 days until I had an asthma attack. Cause for some reason they didn’t believe me when I said I had asthma??? And even then they only let me have one of my inhalers.
The food wasn’t too bad at least.
The group’s were boring and not very helpful. I pissed off a counselor because I was too knowledgeable about coping mechanisms… to which I’m just like??? Aren’t we here to learn how to ■■■■■■■ cope??? I was talking about stims and she cut me off with “those don’t work for everybody” and I was just like chill. Nothing works for everybody wtf.
A pill almost killed me that sucked. It was called prosazin?? Or something I swear to hell I almost died. Like I stood up and everything sounded like it was underwater and I lost my vision for a sec I’m pretty sure I almost passed out. NEVER AGAIN.
I saw a bunch of different people get thrown into iso which was always terrifying. And loud and just scary.
The first place I went to was horrifying though it was a “holding facility” it was just a room full of like 50 people. And you were supposed to just sit In a chair you weren’t even allowed to really get up and stretch your legs before staff would yell at you and threaten to force you to sit down.
The food was expired.
They just left this one girl to sleep in her own piss
Another guy was pacing around the room freaking out about his son while staff yelled and laughed at him
Another guy pissed on the wall
The lady next to me would randomly shout and then break down crying saying “they killed him” over and over again.
Another girl ate a ■■■■■■■ Styrofoam cup tried to fight the staff before passing out because her blood sugar was apparently over 400
The doctor was a fake ■■■■■ I have never seen such a fake smile like omfg it was almost comical.
And that’s not even everything just omfg that place was horrible I’d rather die than go back.