So I’ve been pretty isolated and socially closed off since getting sick, other than playing with a few forum members for short times on my playstation I haven’t really chatted with anybody on a headset or a phone or anything (no real phone calls outside of family). I finally found an Xbox Live match on this single player game’s bonus multiplayer mode and one of the guys in the game was doing a live stream, he has 4,000 followers on a site called Mixer. I followed him and he chatted with me for awhile, helped me get some multiplayer achievements for the game. He had to get off but a friend of his stayed in a party with me and we did some co-op (cooperative) multiplayer killing zombies together. He lives in New York and we were chatting and having a lot of fun.
It really made my day to be social again even if it’s just on a game. We’re gonna party up tomorrow around noon to continue to work on beating the game together to get the co-op achievement. For people who don’t know, achievements are little medals you get that give you points, and they unlock when you fulfill certain conditions, like defeat 500 enemies or eat one of every type of food in the game. I like to get all achievements available for a game when I can.
I also want to stream live or make little walkthroughs of games on YouTube as a hobby, and maybe if I did well I could monetize a year down the road and make a tiny bit of money. I was talking with the streamer about equipment and am really excited to try it. My family was very supportive of the idea.
Anyway the mean voice I’ve been hearing was silent the whole time, which it usually is while I’m talking with someone else, and I had a really good time today. I have been stuck inside my head and depressed for some time so it was a big boost to my mood. I’ve had no mean voice for the last 12 hours and it seems like eliminating Wellbutrin might just be the answer to my problem (the voice was less frequent and almost always nice, not mean, back before I went on Wellbutrin).
So yeah, really happy right now, it’s a rare thing, totally forgot I had schizoaffective disorder for a few hours 
