I’m 29 and recently had my first delusional (no voices, no hallucinations) episode (August 29-5 and off and on for a day throughout September). I was diagnosed with MDD and Psychosis but I have a sinking suspicion that it’s just too soon to call it anything else…The onset was sudden, like a switch went off. Anyway, that’s beside the point. The point of this thread is this: I feel that I am unable to carry on a fluid conversation like I used to. I’m not dealing with voices or delusions or anything like that, I just feel kind of limited in my speech, my ability to contribute fresh ideas, and respond to the ideas of others. My “spark” has gone M.I.A. So far, I’m able to get by in society, I still care about my appearance, drive, run errands, work independently as an artist. So, I’m “passing” as normal… but I avoid real conversations because I feel limited.
Does this happen to anyone else? How do you deal? Could this just be an aftershock of the episode and perhaps my ability to talk will come back?
Note: Initially, I was on Risperdal and some anti-depressant that put me to sleep… Now, I’m on Wellbutrin and was taking Abilify until about five days ago because I told the doc that I thought it was causing my lack of zest. He gave me permission to stop the Abilify.