I just want to cut my life short. I feel fearful about the future. I can’t take care of myself. I find my life too undesirable. I am like someone much older than my age. I am not welcomed anywhere after my onset. If it is easy to do, i want a stop to my living.
Please try Sarcosine + L-Theanine + Noopept + B6 Vitamin + Selegiline 20 mg and, antipsychotic and all your problems will end.
Don’t give up @goggles . We’ve all felt like that at some point.
Maybe the world would get better without me. Probably.
it certainly wouldn’t. You sound like you’re going through a rough time though.
Many many years ago when I was very very young
I sent an email to Prof. Stephen Hawking
and he probably never read it and here is a quote from that email…
I remember the quote and nothing else.
Your username reminded me of the long forgotten quote.
Everyone looks at the World through their own Goggles.
I feel I’m sinking. I don’t think I’ve hit bottom yet .
When you are losing the ground beneath your foot
think you are flying and
when you are flying
don’t think you will be blown away.
The above quote was made by me almost 13-14 years ago.
Edit: Not flying, it’s floating. But both serve the purpose well enough.
BIG HUG!!!
You have to explain this to your doctor. Maybe it’s time for a med change. Don’t do anything stupid.
You’re not alone, we all go through periods like this.
Sounds like you are really depressed… sorry you’re struggling now. I was very depressed for almost 3 years. I thought it was never going to end (excluding the hypomania/mixed crap which was just as bad). But the depression did end and meds took care of the hypomania/mixed part. I still get depressed, but it doesn’t last long anymore.
If you keep fighting and keep trying it almost certainly will get better. I’m not saying that because it’s going to make the depression magically go away, I’m saying it because if you want a better life then you first have to believe that a better life is possible. And even if you think things will never change, remember all those times people have told you they will. They might just be right.
Your future can be a good one if you keep fighting and keep trying. But if you listen to the lies your depression feeds you and give up on life, you will never know.
When this illness hits us, we are initially not prepared to face it
and,
when we take medication and health supplements
these chemicals prepare us to live without major problems.
I am not loved by those people anymore. It’s meaningless to live. They all withdraw themselves from my life. I’m alone everyday. I cant find a meaning struggling to live.
How do you handle a full live of loneliness? I’m all alone.
Ask your doctor / psychiatrist to plug you into something. Like get a social worker. You sound like you want to socialise. But you have to tell your medical team that you need it.
Believe me if you have money or some other financial support then you can choose
your words,
you can literally say you are all alone
but with money on your side you can forget the others who are not part of your life
and,
now, you can say you got the life you always dreamed of.
You don’t need life that is not YOU
you just need to live the life you can possibly have.
I know it hurts a lot when people give up on you. But it’s a part of life, we have to learn how to cope with all the ■■■■ life throws at us. And the ■■■■ never stops coming. You sound like you could really benefit from talking about this with a professional. It might help the depression, and they might be able to help you overcome the problems you’re facing socially so you can make new friends. Don’t give up.
We are individuals, we can’t expect others to follow suite.
I think selegiline requires a prescription.
I feel the same way you do philosophically. A person is much more complex than just one point of view. Enjoy the pleasures that life has to offer: food, sleep, the natural world, driving a car, reading, thinking, washing the dishes, being alone. Sorry-That’s all I can come up with.