Now I’m 11 years with this illnes. And it’s worst even when I start. My family isn’t interesting of mine situation. I have no friends, no job. I felling that I m crap. I live in small country that has no supportive sistem for the people with this illnes.
I forgot how to speak, I forgot words even on mine own language. I have memory lost.
I have been in hospital for some time. And they only make the things more worst
I’m taking risperidon 5 mg, mendelex and diazepam. I don’t know how to live anymore. No daily activities.
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Sorry that sounds rough. You’re in the right place, this forum is very supportive.
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You have to take things one step at a time.
Maybe you can start with a shower in the morning or going for a walk. Wellbutrin also helps me.
I don’t talk about my illness that much with my family as well. Still I appreciate their support.
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Well, I am glad that you found this forum. It is very helpful, in my opinion.
I think that @Jonathan2 has a good point about taking things one step at a time. I hope that you have some things to enjoy in life. I am very sorry to hear about your lack of support.
If you need some support on any issue, feel free to post it here. Doesn’t even have to be illness-related. I posted about my neighbors because I needed some help dealing with them.
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No Not in the world can help me. I’m stupid I feel like stupid. I have no willing to fight with this thing anymore. I’m so sad. I don’t even have will to make me a lunch. Even we don’t have products in this house for eating. They don’t get from store nothing. I can’t walk distance walk because I m very tired and my body can’t start shake very quickly. I must go to some place and it’s very distance and I’m afraid I will colapse and I will fall at the street.
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If you can’t get to the store by foot, can you order food online? You need to eat.
In Spain it is possible to get groceries delivered to your house.
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Yes and here have delivery. But I don’t have money. I think that I have some 7 years till I will became street lady. I won’t be have house. And that.
Who is they? Family?
Are there support services or agencies where you live?
Do you enjoy music or movies or even video games?
Video games can be challenging and a good way to exercise the brain.
To the point though you can start developing a skill. Wood working or playing the piano… doing art in the real world or even digitally on the computer.
If you don’t feel stupid at some point in your life you aren’t trying hard enough… it’s ok to feel stupid.
But it sounds like you need some long term hobbies to both fill your time and help you grow as a person.
Stick around. Lots of people to talk to on here… a lot of them are in your exact situation.
Sorry to hear your actual situation.
I’m goin d’accord with most of the above statements too.
When did your very heavy depression started ?
What did you do before you got depressive ?
Your feeling that you are stupid is temporary.
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I have been with this illnes until 2014. At first it was all good. But how I get the new medicaments the illnes was more intense. I was working until 2020. Not at same place but I ve mange to be stable. Past winter for first time I was in hospital. From than until now I’m in bad shape. The summer i was more stable. In that time I can think clearly. But they shift mine medicaments maybe 3 or 4 times and now I’m in worst situation. I can’t think. I’m only home. I have scared from going out because my body is shake. I don’t know does is from medicaments or I have some other illnes. I’m scared.
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You should go to your doc and tell him that the med combo don’t work in your case.
I don’t know any of the medicaments you take but I know that I had similar trouble like you.
Everyone reacts different to diverse medicaments.
It’s the job of your pdoc to find the right things with you.
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What exact diagnose you got in hospital @ananan
Are you from Eastern Europe?
I have f 20. That all I know.
I’m from eastern europe yes.
I can’t Function like this anymore.
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I’m asking myself why you got diazepam prescribed, I looked at it, it seemed not very helpful to do activities.
Again, talk to your pdoc if you have or change the doctor.
You are in the right place, looking for support. A lot of experience with this illness from folks here. I wish you good luck @ananan
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