Nothing seems to work
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I’m sorry you’re feeling this way. I wanted to let you know I’ve been enjoying all your post for the last week or so. It’s been giving me lots to think about. And I’ve enjoyed talking to you.
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That’s really nice of you …
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Spooky u are creative mind…
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I have nowhere to put my mind
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My psychotic expirience is useless
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have you ever considered painting or drawing without the computer. You have a keen eye for colors and balance in your graffiti and I think you would be an excellent painter or even you could do pastels or colored pencils. I would love to see what you could do.
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Hang in there Alexei! Things will get better. Keep trying new things and working with your doc. I’m so sorry things are going so bad for you.
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Here is posted today with pencils it’s kinda simple but I just draw it to color it , I am painting now in hospital with guash and acrilics I think but I don’t make photos there 
I will post what I painted at home
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I was with doc today she will put me on aripiprazol injects instead of pills she told it more perspective medicine for young people couse it works all the time the same not like pills couse you not always taking them at the some time
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That’s great. What program do you use for the graffiti that you always post. I would like to try to do some too.
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Clip studio paint I got it with my Wacom Intuous comic tablet, it works pretty fast I cannot draw slow with it otherwise it will be curvy lines it’s pretty hard to draw with it
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oh no! Is there a free program for beginners? Something that would be easy enough for me to try?
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Do you have tablet first … idk if it’s possible to draw with a mouse it’s pretty difficult maybe try krita
Or google free drawing software
I just tried autodesk sketchbook and clip studio paint I didn’t tried other
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I have no inspiration too. Life is difficult. I don’t know what to do.
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For everyone without inspiration today, I appreciate you and who you are, just exactly as you are. <3
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@AlexeiStukov… a hospital stay may be a good thing for you now…dont get too downhearted…we all like you on the forums here
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I feel the same way. Everything feels super bleak, endlessly so. I have trouble just getting through each day. Nothing seems interesting. At best, I feel empty, at worst, I cry a bunch for no reason and just want to sleep forever. Today is especially bad for some reason. I just woke up feeling awful since I’ve been having nightmares pretty much every night again.
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@ZombiePupper oh honey I’m sorry you’re having a hard time. Sounds like your anti-depressant isn’t quite strong enough. You could get a full spectrum bulb and put it at your computer table (or wherever you sit to for awhile). That might help with the feeling that things are bleak, the empty feeling and the crying.
As far as the nightmares go you can get help for that if you suffer chronically. I was having a hard time getting enough sleep because of disturbing dreams and they put me on a medicine called prazosin. It was originally for high blood pressure but they discovered it worked on nightmares for folks with PTSD. It works really well for me. So if it’s an ongoing problem for you talk to your pdoc about it. There is help out there.
Anyway hang in there and I hope you feel better
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