I am still researching and thinking on it but so far…
I have PCOS which means excessive hair growth and which may or may not grow back after treatment. Including on the face, as a women that is …but I do hope the treatment will be permanent although I do not know. It is expensive treatment, I don’t know how often I would be able to pay for it again, if there is hair regrowth on my face. OR if it will even work
I have also got other insecurities about other features of my body in front of certain people.
I think that the fact that this makes me feel insecure in front of certain people but not in front of other people, means that :
I am being greedy to pursue those certain kinds of relationships with those certain people types because there must be a reason why I feel ‘not good enough’, or a better way to describe it is maybe just not suitable.
It seems to be that these people types which I also happen to ‘crave’, the fact that it leads to unwholesome factors in me such as craving, means that I might be being greedy, to attempt to pursue or consider such an attempt with those certain people types in non platonic ways.