So I missed a few doses in the past couple weeks and had a bit of mania that may or may not have been related to that lapse. I get to working on all sorts of projects. Now comes the crash of having no motivation whatsoever, and being saddled with personal projects, some of which involve other people. That wouldn’t bother me normally but this is a pattern i have of getting back into it and continually proving how much of a flake I can be.
I wish I could feel motivated all the time. I don’t care if I feel good all the time, just the motivation is all I need. As it is, I feel like I could just pass away and not give a crap.
Sorry to hear of these difficulties @Coldcomfort. Hope you can find the motivation again to finish your projects. And of course I hope you feel better.
BTW love the Syd Barret thing. So cool!
Be careful tampering with your med’s! Personally, I’ve messed up several times doing that. I can relate to your lack of motivation. That has always been a problem for me. There were times when it would have been so much easier just to do what needed to be done, but I still couldn’t make myself do it. You might try working with antidepressants, if you haven’t already.
Yes, I’ve been taking fluoxetine for years. That’s the one I tend to tamper with more than the others, when it comes to not taking it, or getting lazy and filling it a bit late. I started taking it everyday and it helps a lot. It’s always been a good med for me. It’s just one of those things when you’re feeling good for a while you start to think you can skip a dose. Dangerous, I know.
I’ve done the same with Geodon. I get my sleeping patterns completely turned around on the weekends, and there have been a few times when I skipped my morning med’s so I could stay awake at day treatment, saving myself the misery of having to fight off heavy sleepiness all day. Not smart. I know.