The holidays are fun and i love seeing my family. Im just mentally exhausted after a couple hours. My brothers and sister all have kids and they are so cute but the noise is just overwhelming.
At one point during thanksgiving dinner i thought i was gonna get paranoid and have to hide the rest of the time. But i hid in my brothers room and watched tiktok and felt better.
Ao i hate how schizophrenia can ruin a good time. But in small doses i can still have fun with my family
I am really happy i found out Tiktok distracts me in the early stages of paranoia and i can get out of it by watching videos. Its helped so much. The last thing i needed was to get paranoid at thanksgiving
I was thinking the same thing Ive been having fun these holidays but in my mind Im thinking how much more fun i could be having if i was normal and less tired / more social i would be
Yeah. Normal. What is normal? I get what you mean though. Not so easily stressed out. Whenever im in big groups i always wonder what everyone is thinking. Instead of just enjoying company i over analyze everything. It makes being in crowds difficult