I always get really depressed at nights. It sucks. If there was one thing I could fix about my mind it would be the depression.
The voices I can stand, the hallucinations I can deal with, but the depression is the worst. And the worst part is there’s nothing I can do to feel better, even with meds.
Night time being difficult - I say it is because you are in touch with your infancy when you spent your nights alone in your crib while your parents had each other. That’s really turning the tables on baby.
I’m also much more prone to depression at night than during the day. It’s the only time of day generally where I want to kill myself.
It’s never gotten that bad for me but I hope you feel better.