Psychosis isn’t the issue. weed treated multiple symptoms of mine especially anxiety. But now it just makes me tired, hungry, broke, foggy, less ambitious, irritable the next day, and dependent. So yeah I’m quitting. Was gonna wait a month but why wait.
It was a weird day and my head is fuxx0r3d from stress.
We close at 5 pm. 4:45 pm I get a call from the owner of a trucking company. It’s our LARGEST account. He’s at the auction mart where he just bought 6 new dump trucks earlier in the day with his drivers wanting to take them back to his lot. The auction won’t release them without a cover note, or proof of insurance for the finance company. That raised three issues:
The cover note request asked for proof of insurance for 7 items, not six. They failed to include the 17’ pup trailer they had also purchased earlier in the day and that had to be added to the policy BEFORE I could create the POI.
They just sent in the (incomplete) bill of sale – no mention of financing or Additional Interests.
The bill of sale was made out to the owner’s old numbered company. His insurance was under a different, newer numbered company. You cannot insure something owned by one person under another person’s policy as there is no “insurable interest” – that’s a statutory condition – insurance contracts are null and void without insurable interest.
And I had to fix this in 15 minutes with someone important and angry waiting, no support staff in the office, and my Account Executive on the road and unreachable. I quickly looked something up, it seemed legit, and I had d00d and his posse rolling by 5:15 pm. Got ahold of my AE an hour later and he said I did the right thing.
I’m STILL wound up as the entire day was like that.
My AE phoned me at home yesterday evening and told me that my work throughput is amazing, that at nine months in, I’m already the equivalent of two brokers with about two years experience each. He has recommended me for a raise to our branch manager. I only mention this because I’m accomplishing it taking antipsychotics.
Maybe it’s time to trade up the weed for a better treatment that doesn’t destroy motivation as much? I suspect you would kick some arse on proper meds given your functioning level.
BTW, I’m not criticizing you, actually showing some respect for what I think you can do here. Pretty obvious your function is top flite.
AE is Account Executive. I’m an IA, Insurance Advisor.
I don’t have the knowledge or skills to do his job, and that’s okay. I’m actually interested in moving into doing training and writing training materials. That’s my background and there’s a real need in this company for it.
p.s. Your hubby is right, see the doc. Don’t ignore flashing red warnings from your support network.
He worked in insurance for a while, then went to do run the training department (also writing training material) for a mortgage company. He did it for years and really enjoyed it. But, Goddamn, it was a lot of work. Its definitely a job you have to enjoy.
I may not find what I do all that interesting (it really isn’t), but I’m good at it because I can memorize anything that is NOT when I need to shower next (goddamn it). I do enjoy crushing it at work and being proficient. That’s enough for me. I don’t suffer from the younger, delusional fantasy of “do something you love and you’ll never work a day in your life.” Which is crap. If it was FUN, we’d pay THEM to do it. It sucks, which is why they pay US to do it.
Yes. I thought being a photographer for a living would be fun until I met Bridezilla. And it turns out that Mother of Bridezilla is even more of a ho bag. And the long stretches between paying gigs eating ramen noodles aren’t fun, either.
I like my day job. I like my income being steady enough that I can get multiple mortgages now and have rental properties so that other people pay my mortgages for me. That’s my kind of creativity these days.