I am so full of self hate and self loathing and don’t realize that I am just lying on my bed, inactive and not moving. So with nothing stirring within me, nothing changes. Stiff as a poker.
1 Like
I hate myself to death. I always have. I was an unwanted baby and that never changed.
End of rant. I just couldn’t deny it any longer.
3 Likes
I’m so sorry you are having a rough time. I have been stuck in bed for about three weeks now. I’m doing better though. I’m glad are here though. Take care of yourself. 
1 Like
My cat was a runt, the unwanted baby, she just sat quietly there while her brother and two sisters played merrily! She was a tuxedo cat and her siblings were black cats and she was so shy, but we adopted her and had a great 21 years together.
I hope you don’t hate yourself too much, you’re a good person!
1 Like
I only hate myself when I do something real bad. Then it like fades into something of dislike in general of some of the things I do. Sometimes I don’t do real healthy things. Like not see any of the good that is in all of us.
I love you @PinCushion! I hope you feel better!
Take care🙂
2 Likes
Well said.
Much love 
to you chordy.
I hope you will feel loved and wanted.
Maybe your parent deeper down wants you and loves you more than can be said.
I know what it can feel like to feel unloved and unwanted.
I used to sob “why does no one love me” when I was a child and I felt hated and very nasty painful things were said to me about me being a mistake,ruined life etc
Wishing you much 
love.
1 Like
This topic was automatically closed 90 days after the last reply. New replies are no longer allowed.