All the time. So anxious. It makes me feel so sick. And there is so much I need to get done. And tomorrow is my bone density test which is an hour drive. My family used to take me to appointments but now can’t due to covid regulations. I’m fine to go alone. It just takes everything out of me. Then Thursday I see my pdoc and mental health worker. We are going to discuss possibly raising my zoloft for anxiety. I don’t want benzos. I end up using them too much. I know my daughter feels my anxiety. I don’t want to cause her to worry. I will be ok. I always am. I’ve lived 52 years and I’m still alive.
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I understand how you feel. I have the same issues. Unfortunately, my daughter also has issues with heavy duty anxiety. It breaks my heart
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My daughter used to be a cutter and I’m worried she is cutting again. I just know if I confront her she will shut down. Gotta wait for her to be ready. Talk on her terms.
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My daughter picks at her skin until sores appear. It’s heartbreaking. I know what you mean. I have to tread carefully if I want to talk about it with her. She’s had an anxiety disorder since she was little. She was mistreated by doctors when she was young. Badly mistreated. Eventually we found new drs that were good to her, but the damage had been done. She now has ptsd. So awful.
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So hard seeing our kids suffer
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Yes it really is. My daughter was very sick and needed operations from infancy. Poor thing.
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Good that she has a strong mom like you 
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I’m not so strong. I had multiple nervous breakdowns when she was young. The good news is she’s doing much better now
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@LilyoftheValley @FatMama I have so much respect for mothers. Mothers try so hard to protect their children. I’m medically complex and still am, and my mom suffers so much because of me.
Thank you for being you. 
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I’m so sorry you struggle with illness and suffering. I know it’s awful. But thanks for the kind words
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Thank you. It’s not easy, and it’s also not easy to see my mom suffering so much because of me.
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I’m sure her love for you is stronger than any suffering she endures
I know she loves me, and I love her as well. I just don’t want her to suffer because of me. I was really thinking about ending my life today because I didn’t want her to suffer any longer.
Please don’t do that. You’re worthy of life and love. Your mom would suffer far more if you commit suicide. She would have to live the rest of her life mourning and miserable, feeling like she failed you as a mother
I don’t know. I’ve been suicidal for a while and having a neurological disability doesn’t help. I’ll be ok- sometimes I’m like this because of my illness.
Just try to remember that your mom will suffer much more if you commit suicide. I’m going to tag mods for the hotline numbers. If you feel like you want to do it, contact a hotline.
@Ninjastar @anon4362788
Thank you. I’ll be ok- I’m not going to kill myself today.
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Good. I’m glad.
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