I feel inadequate for my wife

[ZanyNotStoopid]

Although she tells me all the time she loves me and such I don’t feel good enough for my wife.
She’s much more smarter than I am, can keep her ■■■■ together better than I can, and is just an all around better person than me.
I hate that she has to deal with my SZ and DID it’s so frustrating and I feel like she wants out sometimes, but she always assures me she wouldn’t want anyone else.

I know it’s my Delusions and voices telling me all this negative BS and even my alters try to help me when I feel like this.
Sometimes I wish we were just internet friends still or something and never got married because I feel like a piece of ■■■■ for her having to deal with both me and our baby now.
I know it must build up for her but she always tells me she loves being around me and staying home with our baby daughter.

I wish I could stop feeling this way, I’m just so self doubtful and self deprecating.
Does anyone else deal with these conflicting feelings?

I don’t like to tell my wife I feel this way or else she thinks I want it myself but I love being around her and I just wish I could be normal and I don’t know.

I feel like I’m having a depressive episode or something

[jukebox]

hey man, I hear you !! @ZanyNotStoopid maybe try and just do more things for her and the baby? Try to love yourself brother…

[MissOO]

My husband is very good also, I have the similar feeling like you. What I do now is work to afford some family expense together with him, to be more independent in taking care of kids.If I can do this two well, I believe my husband will love me as he used to.

[ArchStanton]

I’m sorry you’re going through this. I get really depressed too. Your poetry makes me smile when I read it. I wish I could repay you.

[finally]

Sounds like you both love each other and being around each other and you’re just having doubts/insecurity. might be depresseion. i know my depresssion can give me negative thoughts, ask your doctor if your concerns persist.