First I have to say that I don’t have a diagnosis because I can never tell one psychiatrist everything… If people are planning everything around me like I feel they are, it means that the psychiatrist will be in it too, and they will want me to believe nothing’s wrong so that I won’t try to ruin their plan. Therefore I’m not sure what illness I have. I hope it’s still okay for me to write on this forum…
The thing I’m wondering about, is that do all of you want to heal? I know that it sounds crazy since whatever it is I have is ruining my “real” physical life, but I don’t want a diagnosis and I don’t want medication. All I want is for the physical world, where I am watched and haunted, to go away and to only live in the one in my head. Can this even be schizophrenia or does it sound like some other disease? Does anyone else here experience this?
For the first time in my life i gave the psychiatrist and therapist 100% honesty. That was last week. I got tired of being sick and decided it’s no way to live. When i went in for my appointment , they asked what made me decide to go in for treatment. “I need help” i said. You need help too. You can only get help if you are 100% honest. If you arent, you are lying to yourself which is very unhealthy. Please seek treatment. I want to see you get better.
For me, it’s difficult to be 100% honest, my goal is to avoid the hospital because then i am trapped so i tell them I don’t hear voices, all is good and well, that way they let me go quicker. It is difficult to trust them
If you/she/he needs a professional intervention to get through treatment resistance, I would use those search tools in item 2 above. Look for clinics that include intervention and treatment resistance services.