I really don’t want to go to therapy today. My therapist is medically retiring anyway. It’s not like we’re in the middle of anything. It’s sort of in that winding down awkward phase. And knowing that he’s sick but not knowing how bad makes me not really want to whine about my stupid little problems. Like, what if he has cancer or something potentially life ending and over here whining about anxiety from going to the grocery store.
It’s really got me stressed, like I want to take an Ativan just to go to therapy. I’ve taken Ativan to go to therapy before when I was getting to know him but it just seems weird now. What should I do? Should I cancel and just not make anymore appointments? Or should I see it through to the end and just transfer to the new therapist when he/she starts?
I’m sorry you are having such trouble. It sounds like you trust him. It is hard finding a therapist you can trust.
I had a therapist I really trusted, my first. She couldn’t see me anymore because of insurance issues. I really enjoyed going to my last session. It gave me the opportunity to tell her how much I appreciated her and she admitted to me that she maybe enjoyed her sessions with me more than with most of her other patients. I guess you could say it gave us both closure.
As to your question, do you not feel kind of de-stressed after therapy? I like therapy alot because it lets me vent to someone I can tell almost anything to. If you do, maybe go just for that reason. It might be time for your monthly or weekly venting lol.
If he was in dire straights, like if he had cancer, he would just stop taking patients immediately. So maybe it is just time for him to retire.
Thanks! I know you’re right @Futomimi and @Wave I did go. But I found out I’ve got one more appointment next week. I guess I’ll go so I can way goodbye to him then. Closure like you said.