I don't want fear to control my life

Yesterday the insurance finally approved my anti-psychotic medication! I got it filled and I feel calmer now because I was just starting to sense irritability and stuff even on Hydroxizine which is what I’ve been on until the medication was sorted out. I had an allergic reaction to Topomax, made my throat swell up and got migraines each time I took a dose. I lost my voice for a week. While Abilify does cause vision blurriness I’m on half the dose so it should be less severe now. I’m happy I’m back on Abilify but I get paranoid.

I’ve pretty well settled on Geodon and Seroquel to keep me in line. I’ve given up on looking for a drug that will make my life easier. I just want to control my symptoms.