Im worried if I go back to nyc they will box me in and cut me off to make me desperate and taken advantage of because of systemic inconsistencies and incentives to corporations over human life. Its a looming threat that something bad will happen. I cant run away from my issues. I feel happier and more connected in rural areas but i can’t afford it here either. I want to stay and dont regret my 3 days vacation from the city. Ughh depressed …its possible there was a mixup because it says all my resources were just cut off or rejected.