There was this girl in Iop Who definitely had some personality issues, but besides that and her dual diagnosis, she was ideal. I could look past her personality issues because she brought a lot of good to the table. She made me nervous. Girls don’t usually make me nervous, usually I just don’t want to talk to them, but this girl made me nervous. We went on for three weeks, then the group leaders told me… She has a boyfriend!!” Right in front of her and me. My heart was broken. I was in shock. I don’t usually get angry at anyone, but I was angry at this girl, and I thought she felt she deserved it. She had to hear the brunt of Jonny B Goode in his truest form for a good hour or two.
But then, there was this other girl who is attractive to, and I went and talk to her and helped her out with something. So I really took the highroad and this other girl saw it. And so did the other one.
So the second girl, the one that I didn’t become to like a lot before finding out she had a boyfriend…now she’s been flirting with me. But I don’t like her like that. I liked the first girl.
But every girl I’m attracted to is already in our relationship. This is why I feel I am unlovable. Because I missed out on relationships and being normal since I was very young. And now it’s like too late to catch up. All the girls I’m attracted to are ready in relationships. And have been for a long time. I don’t think I’ll ever meet anyone. Not that I’m not capable or worthy, it’s just the dynamics are all ■■■■■■ up in my life. The end.