Rub the counter tops? With lysol?!
@sleepybug. Please donât do anything âout of the ordinaryâ for a while, like a month, as youâre currently switching meds. Switching meds can be quite rough and emotional.
No just rub my hand along those fresh counter tops and tap my nails.
You know what Iâm sayingâŚ
I am just so tired⌠ive had enough⌠i wanna be alone and find myselfâŚ
I get the impression that the reason youâre always switching meds is because you desperately want to enjoy the life you have. But maybe itâs not the life for you. You have dreams of grand adventures, and those needs arenât being met. At some point, you have to ask, âis it a medication problem, or just you wanting something different?â
I think if i die⌠i will be comfortable⌠i am so tired with my expectations and values and life in general⌠i need to be on my own. I bought the ticket for marche 31st. I will pay my taxes and prepare everything then leave.
Thatâs the med switch talking. Itâs going to be a rough few weeks. Trust me on this. Just donât do anything for a few weeks. Youâll have to ride it out.
I hope this trip is what you need and helps you connect with something. Iâm sorry youâre feeling so down, though. Finding meaning in life is a never ending journey. Good luck.
Who is sooner88?
Heâs cool. A good guy.
Everybody is changing nicknames so i dont know
He is gay I thinkâŚ
Yeah he is. 1515
And how is that relevant to me?
Sending you love and hugs !
Hope you figure out what is best for you and how you can achieve your dreams and live a happy life!
Be mindful of the effects your med switch has on you and donât ever give up. Happiness is not impossible.
Well you are doing better than me when I was your age if thatâs any comfort. When I was 28 I was in the middle of a serious crack addiction. My life was a mess. Every day was just a new misery while losing almost everything.
As to purpose, you make your own. If you canât do what you really want, than just channel all your energy into something else. I never give much thought into purpose. Thatâs an esoteric thing that I donât dwell on.
I just try to do whatâs in front of me and occasionally have a little fun. I feel for you. You have more to lose than me. Youâve had more going for you than me. Before I got sick I didnât talk to anybody at school or practically anywhere else. Youâve has a taste of the good life while I lived with just one or two friends over a period of years.
my credit line was declined for some reason - the expiry date was wrong apparently. I am glad in a way.
I didnât get the ticket. After crying and drinking a little - I slept and when I woke up I changed my mind.
I am so grateful for what I have but I am sad and lonely - I am not sure if I can live a life without purpose other than day to day activities. I donât know how people do it. I can not have kids - I am mentally unstable, itâs not logical for me to seek family and mental stability and comfort?
I have been on my own since I was 18.
The only logical thing for me to do is bring my sister here - with her family and my mom. I am not sure how. I donât have 50K
Have you talked to them about this over the phone? What do they say about your unhappiness?
Also, you can find a purpose without being a mother. Care for people in need. Do what inspires you. If you are to unwell right now for that so be it. I take vicarious joy in my nieces and nephews. My wife and I never had kids but she works in the adoption field and it is rewarding for her.
Be kind to yourself right now.
My heart goes out to you sleepybug. You sound like youâre going through a rough time with existential angst. Please give it a month though. Things wonât seem so bad then, once the med change is over. At the moment, you canât see the wood for the trees. Youâll be able to see things more clearly in a while.