It’s normal that you feel scared, I was terrified when I got diagnosed, but you came here and you thought about that yourself, that’s more than I ever done. I had no insight whatsoever, just believed in all of it, didn’t believe i’m ill. But accepting that we want to be healthy despite this illness is great.
I have issues with my mom as well, she didn’t want to believe I am sick, so it was difficult but manageable. Just tell her you’re not feeling alright and think you need to see a psychatrist. What do you think the reaction might be?
I just feel like she won’t believe me because I act normal with her and I look perfectly fine so I don’t think she would take it seriously or she would get annoyed if she did believe me
It is very rare for a 13 year old to have schizophrenia. For guys, age of onset of sz is late teen’s. For girls it’s even later than that.
What made you think you had it in the first place? I feel like it’s easy to scare yourself into thinking you have things if you just read about it online without first checking out other people’s accounts of it
If you had schizophrenia you’d hear voices commanding you to do things or trying to hold a conversation with you. You’d also probably see humanoid spirits invading your imagination that won’t leave. It’s also possible to feel humans not of this dimension trying to move your body.
At the peak of SZ, you’d feel forced to retaliate by talking in “tongues”, hitting, or yelling. That was the birth of my SZ. I was 24.
There are other things the take on the Sz flavor but aren’t…
I didn’t get my Sz diagnosis until I was 17… I’m 30 now…
but when I was 13 I was diagnosed with ADHD and OCD…
There were command urges and hard times concentrating… daydreams that quickly wove into the memory and became a memory… compulsions I couldn’t fight.
I bet your feeling confused…
Confusion can lead to a lot of anxiety… that’s not going to help either… please talk to a school councilor or a professional to get you on the path to feeling better.
Ok so I read it and that definitely sounds like some symptoms of psychosis…I’ve experienced very similar things…they might slap you with a nonspecific psychotic disorder like they did me. Or maybe you do have prodromal schizophrenia (meaning you’ll develop it in full later), who knows. Again a professional is your best bet!
For your sake I hope it doesn’t develop into full-blown sz.
