despite some residual sz i am doing fine but then the looking back starts and it hurts a whole lot.
its like i want to tell myself that nobody cares to make myself hurt less.
the truth is i really don’t know if anybody cared for real. and this goes on and on.
judy
Living in the past leads to depression.
Living in the future leads to anxiety.
Try living in the now and here!
Living in the present is good cos the present is a present.
Best wishes,
thanks so much for reminding me to stay in the now.
how is your now coming along?
judy
It’s going not bad. I’m not over the moon. But content for now.
I ruminate too from time to time. It’s difficult to avoid sometimes.
Best wishes.
i am glad for you – you seem to be almost there. good luck judy
I have a long way to reach my goals. But I try my best as possible to enjoy journey.much easier said than done.
beautifully said littlemissslothy thanks so much for expressing that. i have been suffering with sz for over 40 years now and i must say that now for my senior years it is much better and easier to journey as you say.
i am sure that the science behind healing us with sz is way advanced since i started out with the diagnosis.
so don’t despair – keep hoping for your life to be as you wish it!!!
hugs, judy 
Thanks for the kind words. It’s good you are feeling things are a bit easier now though am sorry to hear about the ppl around you. Hopefully that may change at least somewhat at some point. 
that’s kind of you littlemissslothy. i appreciate it. judy
I haven’t heard that expression since I was a little kid during the Great Depression.
I use it all the time. Lol.
I’m a bit old fashioned I guess.
Yeah right and I was a bootlegger during the prohibition.
Come on Nick, everyone may use ‘over the moon’ at least once in a blue moon, expecting otherwise is like howling at the moon.
(Doing Michael Jackson’s Moondance)