How do you feel when someone calls you a name?
alarmed, anxious, scared
Does arguing make you feel edgy?
I am not sure what edgy means, but I try to avoid arguments, I am not one to argue back
Would or have you ever lost your cool?
I have done a few… rage typical things during episodes, but normally because I feel compelled to do them not because I am angry.
We’re you ever at your edge about to crack?
Frequently when I am too stressed or if I start to feel really uncomfortable: around large groups of people or in a room alone with a male would be a few examples.
How did you calm yourself when handling irritating people?
I try to remove myself from the situation or retreat inside myself.
How do you settle an argument peaceably?
As long as the conversation remains calm and civil I will discuss the topic to resolution, however if things get loud, angry or really emotional, i try to escape
I am a very shy and easily scared. I don’t make a habit of putting myself in situations where I have a high chance of dealing with aggressive behaviors; to be honest I spend a great deal of energy avoiding it. I use to be very confident and strong but more and more I am constantly terrified and on alert. Jumping at loud sounds, always listening and observing what is going on around me, judging people based on what level of threat I feel they pose to me, and surveying a room for exits and defensive positions. I keep very specific routines that are carefully calculated to reduce the possibility of conflict and I favor isolation. I eat my lunch at work alone and away from people. I am alert of everyone who walks by my desk, I avoid being touched, I go straight to work, and straight home. It is difficult to convince myself to go outside my house for much of anything. But I am walking to the pond some evenings when there is nobody there to sketch. Other than my fiancee and my 2 friends I don’t socialize much.