Barely remember it. I was not in good shape.
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My first appointment was back when I was 17 or 18, and I just barely remember it. Iām 62 now.
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Terrifying. I was 16, and after a suicide attempt, I went to a crisis mental health center for teens. They strip searched me, and locked up all my belongings. I didnāt even have access to my clothes. I was told a guard would give me clothes every morning but then lock them up again. That same day I saw the pdoc. It was so scary to me.
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I was 19 and pre-schizophrenia. I was seeing a young, pretty therapist. I was going through some bad stuff but I wasnāt psychotic and I was working and living with my parents. I was functioning but I was isolating.
I never told my therapist about what was really going on with me. We just chatted about sports or music or current events. This went on for months than the head psychiatrist called a meeting with my parents, me, my therapist and him. We were in there five minutes and he said, āHe needs to go in the hospital immediately.ā Me and my parents were shocked and my poor therapist started crying because she had no idea I was that bad off.
That was my first visit with a psychiatrist and my first hospitalization.
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Thatās kind of strange. Had you told the psychiatrist you wanted to commit suicide or anything? If the therapist didnāt know, how did the psychiatrist know?
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It was in 2015. I called the cops saying someone is coming to kill me. So thecops came and saw i was crazy and told my parents i need to see a psychistrist. So i went and saw one and he prescribed me risperidone. Risperidone was the worse antipsychotic i was on. I could only respond with 1 or 2 word answers and i was completely zombified. All antipsychotics make me feel like ā ā ā ā that ive tried. But risperidone was the worse.
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I made a suicide attempt at 15, but didnāt have schizophrenia. The psychiatrist wanted me to go to group therapy, but I never did. I canāt hardly remember my first schizophrenia appointment. I mostly heard sex offenders and was given tralafon.
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I guess I told him all the bad stuff that was really going on with me. I just acted normal when I saw my therapist each week.
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First psychiatrist I saw was one of the ward doctors after I had a psychotic episode at university. I had been unravelling for months and finally had a huge public meltdown. It was public because I was involved in some sort of class project someone was doing. The arrest report just said I was taken to hospital for ābizarre behaviorā. I was pretty psychotic up until the injection which was given to me after another patient and I tried to escape from where we were being temporarily held. I remember the security guard sitting next to the bed saying something as I went unconscious. I woke up in the ward the next day and later that day saw the psychiatrist whose personality automatically conflicted with mine. He was very rationally minded and at that time even when not psychotic I was about living life without planning, doing the minimum to get by, and basically not caring about anything. He got the gist of this attitude and me of his and I basically said Iām not cooperating with him at all. I didnāt take any further medication for the time I was there, went to tribunal with a lawyer and was released.
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Got it. That makes sense. Did you feel uncomfortable with her?
No, I had a crush on her; she was really cute and nice. I just liked going in and talking to her for a friendly 45 minute conversation. I was just really good at acting normal. It seems weird now I guess but I didnāt want to admit anything was wrong with me. We talked about some problems but mainly we just had friendly conversations.
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I understand. Maybe get a male therapist so you can open up more easily?
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i was 13, my first day at the institution near my house (wouldnt be the lastā¦)
i started off with one, and he was the one to diagnose me with DID and SZ.
he was really understanding, he put puzzle pieces together that i never knew or saw.
he was the only good staff member in that facility.
ive seen countless more since. only him and my current one have ever been respectful to me.
i cant really remember any more details, its been too long. my current pdoc is sassy as fu*k though.
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I had another female therapist about 20 years ago. I felt comfortable talking to her. Coincidently, she was really good looking. I saw her about 5 years. Iāve also had male therapists before and I felt OK talking to most of them too.
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Thatās good that you have had good relationships with former therapists 
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I guess one has a relapse when sent back to the mental hospital. Anyway, those of us who have regular meetings with therapists tend to relapse less often. I want to relapse less often.
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At my first appointment with a psychiatrist, I told him that the only reason I hadnāt killed myself yet was because I had to take care of my seven year old son. The pdoc told me I was depressed and put me on Elavil and Lithium. They didnāt help.
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my first shrink yelled ādo you think people are out to get you?ā and then things went downhill from there.
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That psychiatrist ditched me pretty quickly. I had one ten minute session with him. I think he quickly realized that my prognosis for therapy was not good.
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I was catatonic so all I heard was he wanted to prescribe a tranquilizer/anti psychotic. My mom said at first he wanted me to do ECT though.
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