I finished cleaning, gonna shower later, brush my teeth.
I am not working much.
I am also depressed.
I just feel completely flat I guess. which is horrible. I slept most of the morning and now having some misunderstanding with a client. She wants to add 20" picture on her website.
What about you?
I have doctor and therapy tomorrow.
I am starting to think of ways to end my life in a very easy way.
Remember this will pass…depression never lasts though it can be easy to forget that when you’re not doing well. Also remember even small irritations can be blown out of proportion when you’re depressed so don’t let something like an annoying client make you feel like not wanting to live anymore, your life is worth more than that…
Sounds like you’re having a bad day. That’s all it is. Tomorrow will hopefully be better. This all started because of that silly argument you guys had.
Once you’ve had a good night’s sleep you’ll be able to see things more clearly in the morning.
Well I was busy all day yesterday and have been busy all day today so I haven’t had time to think. When I don’t have time to think I’m much more stable. Demons have been harassing me a bit today but I have things to focus on to distract me.
My pdoc appointment got pushed back until next week so I have to fight to keep myself completely occupied like this until then. I’ve just gotten through a LOT of depressive episodes before so I know the basic process to deal with them and how they tend to work.
I’m sorry I didn’t respond to you, I hope you can find hope to stay alive. I really like reading your posts and your pictures, I’m just depressed too so I haven’t responded much.
I like you a lot, and hope you will never take your own life, you are much too valuable and a friend to many.
Please hang on to life, all things change, you will find life good again.
Sorry you’re not feeling well, Selene. Please take good care of yourself. I hope your appointments go well tomorrow. I enjoy reading your posts and want to see you do well.
I got some groceries and I was able to talk to an online friend I haven’t heard much from in a while. We went back and forth with pm’s pretty rapidly. I’m a little afraid that the way I said something may have offended her-not in a creepy or pervy way but in a stupid insensitive way.
I don’t know if I should pm an apology because then if she didn’t take it that way, that interpretation might occur to her or she might think I’m being weird.