I’m really struggling w this lately. Doc says they’d like me to lose like 5 lbs so I’m back at a healthy weight. Personally I want to lose 30 lbs so I’m back to my average weight again but I’ve never lost that much weight I don’t think, most I ever lost was 10 lbs.
I’m really having a hard time getting myself to a gym (and there is literally a gym in my apartment building!!) or an exercise class. My sophomore year was the only year I exercised regularly, and I was greatly motivated then because it was the only thing at the time that gave me relief from extreme anxiety and aggression. I found the first two weeks going I had to really push myself but after that I felt gross if I didn’t go! I know this would happen again but I can’t get through the first 2 weeks.
At this point I’m like maybe I should try a personal trainer because they’ll hold me to my workouts? I don’t know. I’d also love to go on the diet I went on freshman year where I lost 10 lbs but I literally can’t because I don’t have regular access to healthy food anymore. It’s very frustrating.
There are things in life that you simply have to force yourself to do, and for some people exercise is one of them. Like you said, eventually you’re going to love to exercise and can’t live without it.
Let me tell you a story: I used to have no energy (sometimes I still have that feeling), so I thought that if I rested (slept) I would then have more energy. I was showering once a week (and I only showered when I smelled so bad that even I couldn’t stand the smell) because I felt that I didn’t have the energy. Well, one day I said to myself that I’m going to force myself to shower. Oh, I hated it. I was cursing when I began to shower, but then I started to feel good. I bought an inexpensive stationary bike from a yard sale, and I coupled the exercise with showering (feels great to shower with sore muscles) with changing my clothes with shaving.
The moral of the story is that you may have to begin by forcing yourself to exercise (there’s no perfect time or place, etc), then maybe you can parlay the exercise into a multi-pronged routine. I’m rooting for you!
