I think I’m rather good at this… being affable usually comes from a conscious state which is unfortunate because I feel I am on auto-pilot 80% of the time. It takes focus and energy to stay present and I think for the most part people think I am either dumb or rude. These aren’t qualities I desire or wish to be known for, and I feel horrible that people see me this way.
Does anyone else feel this way? That their auto pilot is drunk and obnoxious? Or am I making too much of something that is out of my hands?