Hey chads, lately I have been questioning myself if I even know what is like to be free of medication and SZ and I cant remember. But how to cope with this idea? How to keep on living and trying and not to end up in a care home after my mother passess away? I sleep 14 hours a day and I feel already tired after I get up. O can barely work part time. I dont have even one real friend to meet daily or to talk. I lost my energy to play video games or read books. All the girls i try to talk somehow gets info that i have been in a psychiatric ward and they stop responding. Even walking 200 metres look difficult to me. I used to be a great bodybuilder and now im just fat. I dont get any disability benefits so I have to live off 200£ a month. I am afraid becoming homeless or being evicted to care home. I lost my ability to daydream of bright future or even feel inspired. What I do is eat, smoke, sleep. Sometimes I wish I would have died during one of my psychotic episodes…
I know the feeling, dude. Be patient. Everything changes. Why don’t you have disability payment?
I can relate @Newlyborn but yes life is full of changes, some positive.
Schizophrenia is far from a death sentance. But accept the fact your probably gonna be on Anti-Psychotics the rest of your life.
The important thing is to learn coping skills. But you also got to be prepared to challenge your fears and anxietys head on.
And if your not working - start hassling your Shrink for supporting letters to get yourself on Severe Disability Benefits. You shouldnt be suffering on 200 a month.
And sorry to say it - I would hold off looking for a woman as well. Concentrate on yourself first. And the rest will naturally follow.
I dont get disability allowance because I dont have required years of work to apply in my country. I am still waiting what will UK respond
Your not a british Citizen then? Sorry i assumed you was. Im not sure of the rules of people settling in the uk.
They sent me to complete employment support allowance form. I lived, worked and finished studies in UK. I moved back into Lithuania because I couldnt get any support for my new psychotic episode
Sorry to hear that. I live in a town that has mainly a polish community, and speaking to others with an MI i didnt realise it was so difficult.
Hello,
I think there are some things that you can do to improve your life and your mental well being. SZ is a tough disease but if you get healthy in general… I mean psychically and spiritually as well as emotionally… you can improve your happiness. Why do you sleep so much? Is that from the meds. Maybe you can try a lower dose if your doctor OK’s it. Also can you find a way to go for walks in nature. I think doing some activity will make your brain produce good chemicals that will make you feel more happy. Do you have any intellectual hobbies. Reading stories about other people who have had difficult lives can make you feel better about your life. Do you have any spiritual interests. Like meditation, yoga, or some belief that can help you make sense of this difficult situation. I’m not promoting any religion but I know my spiritual beliefs give me the strength to live on. If you want to make more money, are you a native English speaker? I can tell you how to teach English online and you can make some money.
Please contact me if anything I said is of interest…
Best wishes.
Sean
Some things to try:
- Change your medication. This is a bit of a gamble as you may end up with something worse, but getting the right medication is a real bonus.
- Eat healthily and exercise. Cutting out processed food will have you feeling better. After some time eating well you may start feeling like exercising again which is a great boost.
I used to do bodybuilding and powerlifting as well trying a vegetarian diet to improve health now.
I think you can start to make some small changes, step by step, and this will gradually improve the way you feel.
First you can start some small exercise regime and start eating right. Fruits and vegetables and cut out the processed food. Go for a walk or a mild jog starting at 30 minutes a time and moving up from there.
Are the meds the reason you need to sleep so much? Maybe get up and have a cup of coffee and do some exercise. I know it’s tough at first but I believe some small changes can make a big difference for you.
How to the girls get notified that you have a condition? That is weird…
I feel for you man. I can relate to you a lot.
I have similar fears.
You have to believe you will help yourself. And you have to help yourself. Push yourself.
I left the hospital completely traumatised and shocked about my reality and severely depressed. I was highly disassociated with the world.
But I knew I wanted to improve my odds of survival.
I applied for jobs and education programmes and now I am half way through a degree and also part time at a local restaurant.
I spend my days sleeping, walking in the garden smoking and using my phone for music and occasional reading and tv / anime.
I also try to lift weights that I bought after a year of working.
I have planned ways to be a self employed and entrepreneurial so that I can fend for myself. This is what gives me a goal and this gives me comfort. I have to trust and believe that I will get better at managing and dealing with my health conditions — this is the highest importance in our lives.
Stay positive when nothing else gives.
In the movie The Joker, Phoenix says the worst part about having a mental illness is that people expect you to act as though you don’t have a mental illness. I think mastering this art is key to reentering society. Act normal, tell no one. I’m not quite there yet, but I’ve been improving over time so I still have hope.
One day at a time is the only answer I can give. I already spent a year or so grieving what could have been once I got my insight back. I have this feeling of joy I get from not being in a solitary confinement cell. It’s been there in the back of my head cheering me on ever since I got out of the cell. See, once you’re deprived of everything other than food and a concrete slab to sleep on for half a year, you realize the rest of your life is actually a paradise by comparison.
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