Sorry to bother everyone, but I’m still in this situation.
I’m at this point where I genuinely cannot tell if what I’m experiencing is psychosis or not. I’m in a strange state of lucidity, yet still being too scared to do things as simple as sleeping in my own bedroom because I keep hearing and seeing things from outside the window. I know that my psychosis hasn’t been this bad since I was around 12 (I’m 22 now) yet I can’t remember how detailed everything was due to my DPDR.
I guess what I’m asking is how pervasive hallucinations can be? I know people with psychosis typically cannot tell whether their hallucinations or delusions are real or not, but it feels like what I’m experiencing is too ‘mundane’ in a sense for psychosis. I keep hearing people breathing and talking outside of my bedroom window at night along with seeing flashes of light go off, like a camera shutter. It all scares me so bad but I don’t know what to believe.
I’m sorry if this is confusing or if I’m annoying anyone, I just don’t know what’s happening and how to proceed from here.
Im not sure i get what ur asking but ive been hearing banging on my door, and small explosions in the distance and other stuff like that. Everything is foggy in my memory and mind which is normal for me…,i dont think im in psychosis
I apologize if I was too verbose in my initial post; I’m just really confused and scared with everything that has been happening to me for the past 2 weeks. I guess what I’m asking overall is how ‘mundane’ is the psychosis you experience? I don’t really know how to word it. What I’ve been hearing and seeing feels so real yet I don’t know if it’s truly psychosis.
My psychiatrist says my delusional thinking is like OCD as in ruminating it over and over. Abilify helps me. However I’ve been devolving into my delusion more and more. Even to how I’m decorating my apartment. I just keep it to myself, cause I know it sounds crazy to others. I just try to not focus on it.