My day started off rough, got into a little argument with my mother in law about how much greens to give the rabbit then another when I put kaisei and Leo on the same feeding schedule. He is almost an adult his diet shouldn’t consists of bugs everyday.
Anyway the voices weren’t too bad today, I just felt anxious and some what overwhelmed. Leo is now next door in a bigger tank and the rabbit is on the back porch.
I hate feeling like all I do is undermined by my mother in law luckily she is terrified of bugs and will not let them be kept next door.
My day started out fine then I got a phone call telling me an appeal I filed to see a new pdoc was turned down. I will run out of meds this Saturday and then I imagine hell is going to start raining down on my brain. I do have the Abilify shot in my system for another 2 weeks, but without Seroquel it’s gonna get bad.
My goal now is to do whatever it takes to stay in contact with my therapist and stay out of the frickin hospital! Man, just reporting those aggressive thoughts, like they tell you to do…well, I should’ve kept my mouth shut. I f**ked up bad saying anything!
Well, after I told the nurse that I had THOUGHTS of hurting the pdoc, they claimed I threatened her and sent me a certified letter saying they were terminating me from medical services…and in 3 weeks I’ve been unable to find someone who can write psych scripts. Hopefully, my case manager will find me someone.