I was insecure all through my 20’s and into my 30’s. It would manifest as me talking too much. I would get nervous before meeting people and as a sign of trying to connect with others, I would talk way too much, almost incessantly, trying to connect with them.
I was a deeply insecure teen…I’m much better now though and have regained most if not all of my confidence.
It was mostly due to the fact that I was in a very cruel friend group who criticized me 24/7 on anything and everything. I used to brush my hair after every class. I started wearing makeup for them. When we had sleepovers I slept in my makeup because I was too insecure to be seen without it. Every time I picked my outfit in the morning I was worried what they would say about it this time. I bought push-up bras because they would tell me my boobs were saggy. Sometimes they would just stop talking to me for no reason. It was really terrible. I’m so glad we moved away.
I was not insecure before I got ill. My ADHD made me jump into situations without further thought of if it was okay to do so or not. I was in negotiations with my boss several times when he wanted to fire ppl. Saved three co-workers from getting fired.
But now…I am insecure. I believe ppl talk behind my back and that my boss believes I’m a retard.