I carried two babies at one time, and within a year
I was drastically starving myself, only ate breakfast,
lived on coffee and smokes.
I guess people who didn’t know my condition
would call be dieting.
You know what else I didn’t know, insomnia
is a mental disorder.
That is very little to eat. I hav been thru 2 periods in my life where I was too thin. Both times I ended up in a mental hospital. The last time I got sent to a real hospital and was put on a drip. The assistant doctor said I was anerexic and bulimic but I hav never been diagnosed with Anerexia
Who intervened, honey?
I fluctuate so much.
Do you still struggle with it?
I’ve been thru so many changes in my life.
Nobody really stopped it. I went on antipsychotics and ended up gaining about 15 kgs. I want to lose it all back again. I fluctuate a lot as well I seem to hav gained weight every time I go on antipsychotics. How old r u? Do u hav someone hu helped u too stop starving yourself?
I had my first break 18 years ago however my severe depression started before that when I was in middle school.
it’s a strange circumstance because my daughter has cystic fibrosis,
and I’ve written many times, feeding her constantly, but starving myself.
I’m 49. I used to run races. No, no one did help me, until doctors did.
I’m sorry about your daughter having cystic fibrosis. What does written many times mean? I hope u can stop starving yourself.
I weigh 175 pounds, but have at times been able to get into a size 6 skirt. I think Phil still loves me, despite my weight. I was harassed in the workplace when I was doing the best I ever did with my body and health. It set me back, but really it’s no excuse.
Well, I guess suffering is relative. My real suffering was 38 years ago when I first got sick at age 19. One day, I’m at my parents house laying around watching TV and doing yard work for members of my church and gong jogging in the foothills then the next thing I know I’m in a psyche ward. I didn’t suffer in my first psyche ward but it was close.
Then from the ward I was put in a group home with no medication and full blown psychosis. And that was hell for the year I was there. Indescribable hell for every minute of every day for the entire year. My next stay was in a long-term hospital. That was when the real suffering started. And I suffered for 8 months in there.
Next was another group home but when I moved in the suffering shortly went away, due to being in a good environment. After I moved in and the suffering went away, I thought I would never be hospitalized again. Later in AA they told me, " If you want to make God laugh, make plans." I was relatively stable for the next 6 years but relapsed again requiring 4 or 5 hospitalizations. I was miserable, unhappy, psychotic, uncomfortable but I never think of that period as “suffering”.
If I described that period probably most people would say I was suffering. But no, to me, my real suffering was my 8 months in the hospital that I mentioned. Now 35 years later I get miserable and unhappy but I am far from suffering. I feel OK most days and I have things going on in my life even though I can’t always ignore the symptoms.
I remember your story, Nick. Thanks for the recap.
You sound a normal size if u can get into a size 6 skirt. I am a usa 10 so I hav some work to do. That is horrible that people harassed u, people can b so mean
it was over mental illness, honey, probably one of the worst things you can do to a person who suffers.
Yes it is. Luckily I hav not been bullied for my mental illness. But I’ve never had any friends since I became unwell
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