Life’s kind of at a standstill for me. I’ve been procrastinating important things I have to do in my life for years… I’ve been on Ativan 2mg day and night, and 100mg of Zoloft, been off a antipsychotic for almost a year. I’m doing the same activities day by day, unbenefital and non proactive, so bored nowadays that it literally hurts. I’m weak to the point I can’t even stand up, figuratively and literally. Enough about me, i am interested in how the people in this community are doing, it has been a good couple of months since I have been on the forums. I would love to hear from you guys, and hope you find whatever you may be looking for. ~Chris
welcome bro… yah its true everybody has to prove his/her existence till the last breath… I am also off the med …not even started .its been 7 year that i have sz… @first it was mixed anxiety I used to think. but I self diagnosed 5 month back it might be bipolar or sz now I came to know it is infact sz.after searching on internet …and I came to knoe about this forum… 1 month ago.those info msg story from brave heart made me 2 accept my disability (sz).within this month I am seeing a pdoc…hope in the future effective med with lesser side effect will come 2 market…scientist might come out with its cure… hopeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee…
I still remember you…I am on abilify 5mg and Mirtazapine 30mg,what’s the difference between taking antipsychotic and not taking?your still on other psychiatric meds right?
I’m back fighting again
What happened @mortimermouse??
Ativan 2mg in the morning and 2mg at night, 100mg Zoloft once a day @Gtx1990
I got back into Krav Maga. I need the cardio and I miss fighting. It’s just sparring with gear like 30% power, not like what you see on TV. Takedowns are allowed though.
I’m applying at my old school. I hope to be settled by August when it starts. Moving will be tough. I am already having anxiety.
Im considering getting fit.
I hope all of you have had a wonderful day as I have. Every once Spirit does smile on you. She/He really does!
I got me a car a little red Hyundai accent that I have named FIREBIRD or rather she told me her name; after Stravinsky and the Russian Fairy Tale; Firebird. She is replacing my 1999 ford escort that was declared a total loss by the insurance company when a dead tree branch fell on her. FIREBIRD is a very happy little red car. She loves me and I love her. Everything went so very smoothly. I am so grateful to Spirit! My wish for all who read and post on this forum that they have at least one wonderful, magical day here and there! I think we all deserve it. Don’t you? Now, I crave either Beef Strogonoff or Chicken Kiev; but, I will never eat Borsht! Never!
Also, I got to find the bottle of risperidal that the pdoc put me on yesterday. One mg in the morning and one mg in the evening and see her in a month. No Lithium, no antidepressants, or any other crazy medication. I hope to keep it that way! Have a wonderful, magical night everyone. I know that Spirit will smile on you, also. As much hardship and torture as I have gone through in my little life, sometime, sometimes, there is a little red or maybe orange light that shines and makes the pain disappear at least for a little while. However, now that I have tasted a little bit of this wonder and magic; I don’t think I will turn back now. And neither should you, my dear friends. Neither should you. Never give up your dreams or your me-ness! Never!
@Greykitten Congrats for your new red Hyundai… ride safe…
Im sorry for how you feel now.
hope that you feel better
Thank you far cry0. I will ride the very mot safe as I can. As my father used to tell me; you have to watch out for the other guy. And, that is true; as I almost got hit by a guy in Girl Scout vehicle when I had my rental car. I don’t go to church and I am not Catholic; but, maybe I should get a St Christopher’s medal or something like that. Sometimes, though, my greatest fear might be parking my car in the same place where my old car got hit by that dead tree branch. There are lots of trees out there. But, no matter where I park where I live there are trees-Big tsll pine trees! I guess just put FIREBIRD and me in the loving, protective, safe, and secure hands of Spirit. I had my previous car since 2002 when I inherited it from my sister when she passed away from cancer. Up until a month ago; only three times in the collision shop and no total loss until now and not too many repairs-the most major was last Janusary I have been blessed by Spirit so far in this transportation stuff and I plan to remain blessed by being forever grateful, humble, and oppotimistic.
hey grey I request u no to take ur car out in crowded highway’s traffic jams and night time… I think ur relly honest humble person I can fell it from ur post …I like the way u writ. u write reall long u want every thing to come out through. .so I pray to lord for ur speedy recovery good health and hapinesss…take care…
I am honest like the fire and right now it doesn’t get dark until about 9pm; but, I am not out much past dark anyway unless I must be somewhere which is unusual. I am usually at home glued to the tv set, usually the pbs channel. I do plan to take it on the interstate to the mountains. I plan to go hiking in the mountains as that makes me happy; but, not right just yet. I had thought about going on the state highway to the mall and bookstore; but, I have kind of changed my mind. Oh, I will do it. I think I just need a little more time to be more comfortable with her. I do need to go to the grocery store, the drug store, and the health food store tomorrow; but, they are all basically in town. I think I will go in the morning before too many people get to drive. I was thinking that I had bought this little green dragonlet that I am raising. His name is Frankie after Frank Sinatra. He sings one of my favorite songs; “I gotta be me. Who else can I be but what I am.” He protects me all the time and I never drive anywhere without my purse, of course. I am not going to be shy about driving; but, I am not going to rush in like a reckless fool, either. I lay down to sleep about an hour ago and then realized I don’t know where the gas tank. I mean do I need gas. I picked the car off the lot this afternoon and it probably has a full tank in it; but I forgot to ask about the gas stuff; where’s the tank; what about the gas cap, I’m not even sure if I know where it shows on the dashboard how much gas in the tank. I was with my mother and she didn’t even think to ask. When I got my rental car, I asked; but, then they told me how much gas was in the car and how much I needed to return with it in there. Thank you for your kind words about my writing. I have to admit words and writing are my most natural form of expression-sometimes even to the detriment of other forms of expression-not just creative/artistic. And no matter how good I may seem with words/writing some people don’t understand me. I guess they relate better to other forms of expressing themselves. Each of us an individual with our own unique gifts-what a marvelously diverse universe. I am going to try to sleep; but, I am kind of hungry and excited. I keep eating saltine crackers. Take care, my friend! Have a great night!
thanks grey I am from Nepal its around 12:15 pm @afternoon …but ur write up are one of its kind really impressed …and assume if we conduct debate essay writing I am sure u will come out first… if I cpme 2 your country u 'll take me to …in your red hyundai… are u from us…
Dear fry cry O, please forgive me for taking so long to get back to you. First, I am been way too busy. Second, I had a problem with my laptop. The plug into the laptop broke off and I had to go purchase a new cord at Best Buy. Actually, my mother bought it for me. Speaking of my mother, although, I lover her dearly; sometimes she bothers about two things; money and my desire to travel up into the mountains here to hike and explore. One of the reasons I moved from the big city was to hike and explore in the mountains. I believe this is good for my well-being. First, she does not want me to travel. She hung up on me when I told her that I was going to drive 35 miles away for a short trip Thursday into the mountains and a state park. She refuses to pay for my gas! Now how can she keep a southern Sagittarius Cowgirl locked up in town; especially when she has a fantastic red car named FIREBIRD! I told her it was good for my health and well-being! Second, I told her that I had bought a chicken salad croissant at the grocery store for my lunch and she made a funny face. She also got upset when she found out I bought some fresh pineapple and melons slices on sale! She also got upset at me for not eating the brownies she brought me Sunday when I was sick. But, I really prefer fruit to brownies! I had gone for bananas and bread; because, I have taken to eating peanut butter and banana sandwiches for breakfast. I do love my mother; but, at times she can upset me. I have bought some CBT books to help me in this and other matters. Other things help me, too. But, what’s a daughter to do when her mother drives her to distraction?
You said you are in Nepal. Isn’t that where there was a terrible earthquake. I heard about it in the news here in the states. Are you alright? Is your family alright? I saw on the news that many ancient spiritual centers were damaged. That is very sad.
I saw on the PBS channel in a Nature episode about Shangri-La Monkeys. They said the Tibetan monks believed in a great connection between the “animals” and “humans” even beyond “death” So do I. There is something very special to me about “animals” Many times, I have felt closer and more loved and understood by an “animal” than many “humans.” Though, there is this dog down the street that barks verociously when I walk. I think he has been too “humanized.”!
I am impressed that you are so fluent in English. English is the only language I know; although, I did take Spanish in high school and college. All I remember now is the names of menu items at the Mexican restaurant and Taco Bell. Oh well. Have a great day. I look forward to talking to you again soon. Take care my friend in Nepal.:
Not much going on with me. It’s finals time, so you think I’d be going nuts but finals is actually pretty chill compared to midterm time. You don’t have any classes to try to keep up with while simultaneously studying for exams every 2 weeks. It’s just sort of wake up whenever you want, study all day, chill at night. A comfortable and calm routine, and I already have one final down, 2 to go. I’m excited to finish the semester.
Not really any of my symptoms are acting up at all. I’m in that odd state of being semi-normal and not feeling like I need a therapist or pdoc at all.