How does mental illness interfere with your decisions?

I am not sure what my life would be if I was stable.

What would you do differently and why you can not do them now?

Honestly, how it effects me is I have so much difficulty knowing if something is safe or not and thinking I’m probably gonna be attacked or something even though it’s not always true, and I try to tell myself it’s not.
It’s kinda made me weary of traveling alone or doing much alone.
Heck, even going outside at night does it for me.